Every sun rise is a new beginning.

2007-02-23T13:07:00.000+08:00

God You made me see today
I'm living for a higher purpose.
The tunes may be the same, but the presence is different.
The heart is different.
And this heart plays for You only.

2007-02-08T12:53:00.000+08:00

Whatever happens, I guess we just have to know and just have to know and just have to know in our hearts, that conviction, that truth, that faith, that God will pull us through. It's just so simple.. why is it so hard to catch sometimes?

Lord let me fear You even more.. a holy fear.

Change this atmosphere, up this temperature. Lets be totally in.

It's gonna be a year of acceleration- Jesus, take the wheel.

2006-12-21T01:15:00.000+08:00

Today I learnt alot. I'm blown away. I can't describe how I feel entirely because it's just an intangible thing, yet tangible. It's about the feel, the flow, the love.

Sometimes we just live life as it goes and as we go on, sometimes even getting immune to the things happening around us. Things that are not normal become normal. Things that are so wrong become an okay to us. What's happening? What has caused this dilution? Gosh.

Let's stick to the narrow path, keep our heads on. Most importantly, guard our hearts. The purity, the genuine and sincere heart. It's all about the heart. It's not about me. Others.

2006-12-16T15:41:00.001+08:00

God I'm so glad to have You in my life. You dispel all my fears. You're with me whenever I'm down and out. Even when people don't understand after how hard I try, You know. If I never knew You, I can't imagine what life will be like. Thank You Lord for always being there. Thank You for Your everlasting love. Thank You for Your comfort and refuge. Thank You. Take it all Father, all my hurts and disappointments, and use them according to Your will. I love You.

2006-12-14T05:52:00.000+08:00

Wow. I never fail to be amazed by God. His ways are so unpredictabily surprising sometimes that I just get so blown away. His thoughts are indeed higher than ours! And He always protect us. Not just in one area of our life but everything - finances, time, physcially... It's just amazing to have a father like God! I can just know and be secured in the faith that He has his hand upon me. (:

Last night I was struggling to keep awake so that I could prac on my create piece. However, while waiting for my bro to finish using the com so that I could print my scores, I decided to sleep first and wake at like 2 3 am to prac since he never seemed like he was moving any further from the com. But at 2 3 am, I didn't wake! So what happened? God woke me up! And so here I am blogging at like 5AM (pls note that this is an extrememly rare time for my awaking) and I don't even feel the least bit sleepy. In fact, I feel so wide awake now! I'm not mad, it just happened. HAHA! God's just amazing ;)

2006-12-09T09:16:00.000+08:00

Dear God,

Although words cannot fully express my gratitude, thank You... thank You for saving me. I never knew what love or family was, but now I know. Suddenly life has a whole new meaning to me and suddenly laughter and smiles become so real everyday. It's true, so true.. as true as Your love is.

Your love knows no bounds nor limits. The gift of life, the sacrifice You made.. It's all about love, unconditional love.

Although my love for You may never match that of Yours, I pray that the spark in me will never never die. I pray that I'll love You more each and every day, that I'll draw nearer to You and in that You will reveal more of Yourself to me. Let me serve You, and in that my acts may glorify You.

Let my heart grow bigger this season. Let my giving increase. Let my character be moulded by You. Let my talents be used for You. Change me Lord, that I may serve better and be a testimony of Your name.

I love Your presence.

Here I stand in wide-open wonder amazed, at the glory of You.

Thank You Lord.. thank You for saving me.

Love,
Chi Wen

2006-10-03T22:12:00.000+08:00

It's funny how we can get so caught up in the world and it's ever ongoing buzz that we forget what's really important in life. We get so confused that we start mixing everything up. It's always the same issue. Material stuff.. that's just the shell.

Sure we need the necessities like food, but food for the soul is so much more essential than that for the body.

I saw this couple at a hospital once. The husband was real fussy when it came to food, something like a nutritionist, just without the official status. He brought food for his wife, who was hospitalised and warded. However, his wife had no appetite at all and refused politely.

The guy became angry. He sat on the chair next to her in silent anger, face painted black from top down. I could see him seething from a distance, steam churning out from his head already.

The pale and frail-looking woman, in all of her skeleton-like frame, casually brought up subjects about the family, only to see her husband still boiling in the quiet. He did not speak a word in reply, but remained in his firm posture like an angry statue.

She bowed her head in confusion of distress and disappointment. With a slight sigh, she looked up at her husband once more, and with puffy red and watery eyes, said, "I miss all of you."

2006-08-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

When the tide goes down
and colours run fading
The sky turns dark
as dusk sets in

When it doesn't mean anymore
to be affiliated
And people pass
Lives going on

Faces with masks
A facade of smiles
Pretense in the air
Obscurity

What does it mean?
To be adjourned
To be stalled away
Deep in the closet where nobody knows

Yet as the days go by
And you think you can
You break down and cry
and your mask drops down

How is it that you thought that way
At that instant
When feelings were locked up
and tears sucked back

How is it that the world could go on
With the tv shows and acts casting along
Embellished and glamorized
Only to find that it is all skin deep

Had we been too naive
To believe
That all would come true
And compliacted things like these never existed

No, hold firm to your belief
Never let go
Even if you lose some
and the race seems impossible
Hang on there

For when it is dark
His light will shine
In the midst of night
The star twinkles

From the inside out
Everlasting
Never ending

I love you God.

2006-08-02T21:24:00.000+08:00

SATURDAY SOUL FEVER!

2006-06-25T17:07:00.000+08:00

I feel strange. For a moment, I couldn't cry. Ha.
My God is a God of miracles.
Know what?
My grandma's in heaven.
So is my uncle.
WOW.

2006-06-12T12:18:00.000+08:00

My soul cries out for more of you O Lord..

2006-06-07T22:40:00.000+08:00

Prince of Egypt - When You Believe

I do, I do believe there are miracles
Like that shining star in the morning light
The birth of Jesus Christ
Colours on the earth from black to white
I do, I do believe in miracles.

2006-04-23T12:57:00.000+08:00

For all you couch potatoes and comic fans out there, here is some great news for you! Ha.

Parents and relatives often tell us not to watch too much tv and teachers tell us that comics are bad, really really bad. But hey, is it really that bad? Well, not really. In fact all the complicated english words which I learnt from young were picked up from there!

Take a look at this:

-synchronised
- colluded
- unfathomable
- de creme la de creme (note that the 1st "e" of creme has a downward slash)
- coerced
- abysmal

*Translated to British English
** To be updated again as not all the words are with me right now ha.

Hmmm. Actually no, not all the complicated words were picked up here. School also got teach lah! ;)

You know, if you think about it, it's all about choices. It's all a choice- your choice. Whether you want to learn something from somewhere or you just want to get some fun out of it. Maybe more seriously, whether you want to get your life in place or not. Hey that's life! Some people catch it, some don't. It's a choice. You just gotta decide, then run towards that dream.

Impossible to come to pass? Believe, it can.

2006-01-29T01:54:00.000+08:00

Heya everyone! Haha the first post of the year, Here goes!

Hmmm. Lots of things on my mind right now.

Isn't it strange how things happen, whether it good or bad, yet different people take it differently?
Isn't it strange how some people can love the things in this life more than life itself?

Think about it. Life isn't that complicated as we make it seem to be. It's just how you look at it, approach it and act upon it.

I know one netball coach who is simply mad about netball.
He says, "Eat, drink and dream netball."

May be some of us know how it feels to think that way. But have you ever thought it deeper?
Well life is not just about that netball match, or soccer game, or computer game, or movie to catch. It's not even all about that girl or that guy.
I mean, we're not going to be kicking soccer at 87 years old and still in the world champs are we? Unless you are generically modified that is haha.

Stacie Oricole sang "More to Life". I'm sure many of us have sang it too.
"There's gotta be more to life.." Indeed there is.
More than the life many of us lead of misery, lonliness, emptiness and broken hearts. A world without colours and stars, let alone the green pastures and flowers.

Is it really so hard? To find something we can live for forever?

I once felt that way. Doubts in my head, desperate state, my heart and life at stake. I could not bear it. The pain and agony of not knowing my purpose on this earth, the reason for my mere existence. The pathetic life I was twirling about in, the fake smile I plastered on everyday.
I asked, I seeked, I cried, I fought. And then I found it. No, it found me.

Life never was the same again. I tasted honey, swam in the river of life, felt greatness, touched the tip of heaven.

How about it? I say let's eat, drink and dream life.

2005-12-21T18:33:00.000+08:00

O man, you gotta read this! I stole it from Ivan's blog haha.

All things are possible with God
God is Love
Wouldn't it make:
All things are possible with Love?

Whoohoo. I love my life! Who says life is a misery? Bleh. Life is great! Enjoy it. ;)

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2005-12-10T20:24:00.000+08:00

Just got this story from an e-mail a friend sent me. . .

George Thomas was walking through the town yesterday when he saw a young boy coming towards him swinging this bird cage. On the bottom of the cage were 3 little wild birds shivering with cold and fright.

He stopped the lad and asked, "What you got there son?"

"Just some old birds," came the reply.

"What are you gonna do with them?" he asked.

"Take them home and have fun with them," he answered. "I'm gonna tease them and pull out their feathers to make them fight. I'm gonna have a real good time!"

"But you'll get tired of those birds sooner or later. What will you do?"

"Oh I've got some cats," said the little boy. "They like birds. I'll take them to them."

George was silent for a moment. "How much do you want for those birds son?"

"What?! Why, you don't want them birds Mister. They're just plain old field birds. They don't sing, not even pretty!"

"How much?" he asked again.

The boy seized him up as if he was mad and said, "$10?"

He reached into his pocket, took out a $10 bill and placed it into the boy's hand. In a flash, the boy was gone.

He picked up the cage and gently carried it to the end of the alley, where there was a tree and a grassy spot. Setting the cage down, George opened the door and by softly tapping the bars persuaded the birds out. He set them free.

_______________________________________________________

One day satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan had just came from the Garden of Eden and he was gloating.

"Yes Sir, I just caught the world full of people down there. Set a trap, used baits they couldn't resist. Got them all!"

"What are you gonna do with them?" asked Jesus.

"Teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse one another, how to drink and smoke and curse," satan answered. "I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs to kill one another. I'm gonna have a real good time!"

"Then what will you do when you are done with that?"

"Oh I've got a place called hell," said satan. "I'll bring them there!"

Jesus was silent for a moment. "How much do you want for them?"

"What?! You don't want them people. They'll only hate and curse and kill!"

"How much?" He asked again.

Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, "All your blood, tears and your life."

Jesus said, "DONE!"

Then He paid the price and set the people free.

2005-10-31T02:10:00.000+08:00

What if, one day you get retained..
What if, one day you get expelled..

What if, one day you get into an accident..
What if, one day you get paralysed for life..

What if, one day you get persecuted..
What if, one day you get beaten up..

What if, one day you lose a friend..
What if, one day you lose a family..

What if, one day you lose your pride..
What if, one day you lose your reputation..

What if, one day you lose your life..

So many times we can sing those songs over and over again, with a brand new flow of tears each time.
So many times we can say this and that as many times as we like, with a fresh enthusiasm anew.
Yet, how many really mean it and can honestly say we have done it?

It's not the external, but the internal.
It's not the attendance, but the people.
It's not the title, but the burden.
It's not the work, but the heart.

Moses took the baton, ran his portion and passed it on.
So did the following people.
How about you?

So often we take things for granted that we forget the whole purpose behind it.
That we lose our focus and the thing most important.

God, your glory.

How serious are we when we talk about the things of life?
It's not the fun. Not the excitment. Not even the joy.

Are those petty little selfish thoughts still there?
What is it? The fame, the honour, the title, the talents.. whatever.

It's not about me.

Period.

2005-10-28T01:35:00.000+08:00

Watch out devil!
This is just the beginning, we're coming!

BOOM!

2005-10-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

hey you! Yes YOU! That THING inside of you! WAKE UP! GET UP! C'MON, GET MOVING!
We can't stop people. We can't afford to! There's no time to lose. Not even a second. The people are dying out there, all around you. WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!
Man. I can just feel it. All beneath me. That dream. No not that one, THAT one. The one most people wouldn't want. But I wanted it, so I got it. I pray that you get it to. Not just the head, into the heart, into the spirit. Yes, into the SPIRIT! ARGH!

Fall down, Jesus..
The blood of the lamb..
Every tongue every nation
Every people EVERYONE!

Why do you care? Why do you even care? What is it for?!

Lord I Give You all the praise. All of it. Not a drop less.
All the honour. All the glory. All the work. All the effort. All of me. Nothing less.
My whole life was meant for you and only you.
For your pleasure, for your purpose and your calling. Nothing else but YOU!

Through the deep and rough valley you stood by me all the while.
Now when the flowers have bloomed and the sun is shining again, I'll never forget you.
I thank you for everything. Even those times I hated, I learned to love because of you.
It was you who made me stronger, you who brought me to where I can shout in true joy now.
The fire within me is burning, but it's not gonna burn out.
It's gonna burn for eternity.

2005-09-10T10:17:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I really wonder how our brains can take all the information we store in there everyday. O well, the wonders of God! Haha.

Have been thinking a lot about cultures and stuff after speaking to Gabriel. I remember back in Henderson, the team used to talk about our visions, dreams, goals.. big talks! It wasn't only a 5 minute thing but all the time. Even when we were just casually on the phone, the main topic would be still that. It was the norm. Sadly this culture has been fading off. From something so pure and fragile, it has turned to dilution.

This is what my new blogskin is all about. SIMPLICITY within- Bringing back the heart. It's not something external but something internal, inside of us.

I'm sorry Lord for making it what it wasn't.

Create in me a new heart
One that follows you
Place in me a deep desire to know you as I'm known

Growing up is becoming more exposed to the corruptness of the fallen world. But let us stay pure in your presence. For only if we come with the hearts of little children shall we enter your kingdom.

When the music fades
And all is stripped away
Lord I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth

I'll bring you more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what you have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
When it's all about you
When it's all about you Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the things I've made it
When it's all about you
When it's all about you Jesus

I wanna burn your passion of fire forever-
When it's all about you.

2005-09-07T16:45:00.000+08:00

Have been mugging PHYSICS all day long. Amazing experience! Suddenly my eyes became open upon so many things.

I just love thermal energy. Conductors, convection, radiation.. Ever thought about it?

Radiation.
Good absorbers = Good emitters
Poor absorbers = Poor emitters
That means how receptive a substance is equates how producing it can be. How receptive do you wanna be?
It doesn't have to be glamorous at all. Just a mostly despised dull colour. That means anyone can be a radiator! Do you wanna be one?

Convection.
It takes hot air to first rise up, then will the cold air sink into place. Well well. Isn't this just like us and God? We first step out in faith, then will God make things in place! Are you willing to make the first move?

Hmmm.. Just some of my thoughts ha.

Studying the creations of the creator
Loving the creator of it all

2005-09-06T21:58:00.000+08:00

Whooopie. I have TWO minutes to write. So... This shall be a really short post. HA!

The flesh is weak but the spirit is STRONG.

Lets get that in our spirits ;)

2005-08-30T20:39:00.000+08:00

More than the air I breathe today
I need you
More than the desert needs the rain
I need you
More than the air I breathe today
I need you
More than to live another day
I need you

- Air I Breathe
Hillsong United

Don't miss it out. Don't step out.
Don't sell out your destiny people.

To my Lord...

[Inside Your Heaven]

I've been down, but now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess it's right, it's so amazing
Everytime I see you I'm alive
You're all I got, you lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you breathing in, of soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
If mountains fall I'll still be here
Holding you until the day I die

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way

O yes I do
I wanna be inside your heaven

2005-08-27T22:07:00.000+08:00

Was just listening to this song in Sandra's blog (=

My Jesus my saviour
Lord there is none like you
All of my days
I want to praise
The wonders of the mighty Lord

My comfort my shelter
Tower of refuge and strength
Let every breath all that I am
Never cease to worship you

Shout to the Lord
All the earth let us sing
Power and majesty praise to the King
Mountains bow down and the seas will roar
At the sound of your name

.... for joy at the work of your hand
Forever I'll love you forever I'll stand
Nothing compares to the promise I have in you

I'm so amazed by His love

Never ending, everlasting

Always with me

Never once unfailing nor unfaithful
Nothing compares to Him

My Lord my God
Wonderful and majestic

I give
All of me for all of you
For without you I am but nothing
Possessing none
Yet with you I am alive
Everything that I could ask for

Let nothing stop me
Every obstacle to pass
Not by might
Not by power
But by your spirit

Silently I pray
On my knees bowed down
Humbly I come

With all my mind
With all my might
With all my heart
With all my soul

I want more of you Lord
Let your presence flow in this place
Overflowing my spirit

I am sanctified in your blood
Renewed and born again
A brand new me

2005-08-26T22:33:00.000+08:00

Recently, Kawah asked me a question. "How much are you worth?" It was meant to be some kind of lame joke, but it reeally got me thinking.

How much are we worth? Well the answer is simple. We are worth His blood. Regardless of belief, anyone and everyone is worth it. He has done the task, died in our places. Now, it is entirely up to ourselves. The blood is in your hands. Don't waste His blood.

This is my home.
This is my family.
This is my God.

Won't you spare a thought for Him? Or even for them? As I look out of my window, I see so many buildings and apartments and houses. In there are hundreds and hundreds, even millions of people. People who carry the blood of Christ. Imagine if He were to face at least a thousand rejections a day. How would you feel if you were Him?

Please, don't hurt my God. Don't treat Him like a spare tyre. He's not some slide where you go up and down over and over again. He is not your stepping stone. Nor is the Man of God. Won't you treat them with some dignity and honour? Or at least with a certain level of respect? Not merely because of what they have done for you but simply by who they are. This is GOD we are talking about here. Not some trash you find in the bin. Get it right.

On your left is a toy that lasts only a period of time. On your right, an experience that lasts forver. Which would you pick?

Which road would you walk?
Which life would you lead?
Which way would you go?
Which decision would you make?

All these lie in nowhere but your own hands. I have picked my destination. Now is your turn. ;)

This is home
Truely
Where I know I must be
Where my dreams wait for me
Where the river always flows

2005-08-22T16:10:00.000+08:00

Whoooooooosh. I've been blown in the wind the past 846255986036 days. So many things! So many many things! Nothing but great great GREAT! ;D

Lets start off with the day my beautiful head grew another bump. Well I was just sitting down on this movable office chair, and decided to lean back. I closed my eyes and began to dozzzzzze off. Then what happened? The rollers below somehow gave way, the entire chair with ME on it slided downwards and backwards... PAK! my lovely head hit the lovely wooden chair behind. And that's the story of the renovation of the bumpy road of my head! Hahs!

Right now you might be thinking how unfortunate I was. Well, personally I don't agree. In fact it taught me something. After I fell down, my brother made a comment: "Everytime you learn, you fall down." This is because the same thing happened to me 5 years ago.

The thing is, it doesn't really matter how you fall, when you fall or how many times you fall. You can fall upside down or inside out, however you like. You can fall today or tomorrow and may be even now. The question is whether you get up after that fall.

Imagine if I had stayed on the floor after falling down and never got up. What if I had just remained there paralysed? Is this not the same with the way of life? When obstacles come and you fall, do you simply stay there? Or do you get up on your feet again? How would you react to a problem?

If your response is "Yes, I want to get up again", how much effort are you willing to put in? How bad do you want to get up?

It's all about hunger people. In a race, you can start off so well and sprint past everyone. But when you trip and fall, do you get up and run on? Or do you give up, remain on the ground and just look as others overtake you?

How do you end?

2005-07-30T00:39:00.000+08:00

Every creature is beautiful in God's eyes. Every little thing is precious. These are but His creations. Rejoice upon them for they are His masterpieces!

Take me and mould me
Use me, won't you guide me?
I give my life to the potter's hands

People may mock. People may yell or scream vulgarities in your face. People may question and insult your faith. But stand strong my fellow friends for this is the day the Lord has made. And on this day shall the sun shine so ever brightly and in the light the truth shall reign.

Nothing is gonna pull you down. Nothing is gonna make you stop. Even if you fall, we'll be there to help you up. We'll run this race together, till the very end.

We may feel hurt, cuts and wounds in our hearts. But today, let the healer heal you and set you free. Bondages shall be broken and chains shall be snapped. No more of those days where depression loomed and fear fell upon the people. In the darkness the light shall shine. Through the rough patches and through the widening valley we will walk on.

There is a broad way. There is a narrow way. Choose the right way.

Walking on

2005-06-13T11:14:00.000+08:00

I feel good tanananananana WHOOTS! ((((:

I stand here before you
In wide-opened wonder amazed
In the glory of you

The power of heaven
Revealing your purpose in me
As I'm reaching for you

2005-06-13T11:06:00.000+08:00

I've been diving in the oasis this week. Wheeeeeeeee!

O I feel like dancing
It's foolishness I know
When the world has seen the light
They will dance with joy
Like we're dancing now

I could sing of your love forever
I could sing of your love forever
I could sing of your love forever
I could sing of your love forever

2005-06-06T02:34:00.000+08:00

I got this inspriration from Ming Rong's notebook backcover.
There was a Carrefour big fat red "PAID" sticker on it and Ming Rong had added in some of his own creativity. He wrote something like "I'm PAID for by the blood of Jesus..". WOW.
Yes we have been paid for.

I've surrendered my all. How about you?

2005-06-06T02:16:00.000+08:00

Can you hear the flowers blooming and the bees buzzing? -The new start of a bright and shimmy shiny day. All right! (: